Friday, August 22, 2014

First Miscarriage

So we were able to do injections again to stimulate my follicles to grow and then for ovulation. So many darn needles, monitoring appointments and emotions. This time, we were going slow and low so stimming took a long time- so long in fact, it was looking like I would have to cancel because I had an out of state wedding in the middle of nowhere. Sure to be an amazing time, but so hard to swallow nonetheless.

After researching and contacting surrounding hospitals, I thought I could still make it work but on my monitoring appointment before I left my doctor was okay with allowing me to stim a bit more and trigger on my own while on my trip. :) :)

I was so happy to do this but it did present some challenges! When you are staying in the middle of nowhere, you don't have easy access to refrigeration. We ended up borrowing ice packs and keeping my injections wrapped up in the tiny ice bucket. Also, trying to give precisely timed injections in the midst of wedding events, it can be a challenge but we are living proof that it can be done!

And... it worked! We had an incredible, magical long weekend filled with love, family and great times. It really was the best medicine of all and we felt so blessed that we could secretly combine two joyous events. I became pregnant for the first time! (But I didn't know it yet, but we sure were hoping!)

After this trip, we went directly to another family trip to the beach. What a great way to help the TWW go by more easily and to keep up the rest and relaxation!

Upon returning, I went back to work and had my first positive beta test but it was incredibly low. Anything above 5 is considered pregnant but 100 is really the target. I was 5.01. :( (Too low to show up on a home pregnancy test.) We held out hope and I went back for more hcg blood work to have risen to 6. My doctor recommended stopping the progesterone suppositories since this did not look like a viable pregnancy for the number of days I was coming along. The progesterone was the only thing really holding in my little gift and it was heart-wrenching to be the one to stop the medication, knowing my period would come soon after- which it did within two days.

Ugh, what a difficult time...